Turning 40 & Embracing the Journey

As I write this, I am struck by the weight of time. Turning 40 is a significant milestone that feels both monumental and deeply personal. It’s a moment to reflect on the past, grapple with the present, and dream about the future.

The journey to this point has not been easy. I have battled depression and anxiety the last couple of years, formidable foes that have shadowed many of my days. There were times when the darkness felt overwhelming, and finding the will to live seemed like an impossible challenge. It’s hard to articulate the depth of these struggles, but they have shaped me in both painful and profound ways.

Amid this battle, I have learned to appreciate the present moment. Each day is a gift, a chance to connect with my family, laugh with friends, and find joy in the simple things. I’ve realized that life is not about grand achievements or the flawless execution of our plans; it’s about small, everyday victories. Like getting out of bed on a particularly tough day, or managing to have a good laugh despite the circumstances. It’s about waking up and choosing to keep going, even when it feels impossible.

Finding the will to live has been a journey of its own. It has meant reaching out for help, embracing vulnerability, and allowing myself to be supported by those who love me. It has meant acknowledging my pain and permitting myself to heal. Through this process, I have discovered a strength I never knew I had—a resilience that comes from facing my demons and refusing to let them define me. This strength is not about being invincible, but about being able to get up after every fall, to keep moving forward despite the pain, and to find hope even in the darkest moments.

As I look towards the future, I am filled with hope. I see a path that is not yet fully clear but one that is lined with possibilities. I see opportunities for growth, love, and joy. I see a life that, despite its challenges, is worth living. This hope for the future is what keeps me going, and I hope it can inspire you to see the potential in your own journey.

Turning 40 is a reminder that life is a journey, not a destination. Each step, no matter how small, is a testament to our resilience and capacity for renewal. I am deeply grateful for the lessons I have learned, for the support I have received, and for the chance to continue this journey with a heart open to the future. The support I've received has been invaluable, and I hope you can find similar support in your own journey.

As I embrace this new decade, I carry with me the wisdom of the past, the appreciation of the present, and the hope for the future. Here’s to turning 40, fighting the battles within, finding the light in the darkness, and living a life rich with meaning and purpose.